I don't love you anymore

[ye21]

Hey Nova, there is no 2 equal sitches, the only thing in common is the pain.
My experience its pretty similar to yours and this is what I can tell you based on my life experience, work on yourself, on the things you dont like in your life and used all the time you have in being happy, accept her decission, no matter why she choosed that at the end all you have is that she choosed that. And you can only respect that decission and move on.

When you work on yourself your life will start to improve, I used to live in NY and this divorce of mine ended with me living in Hawaii, I have certain moments where I feel sad and lonely, but nothing compared to the first month.

There are reasons that moved you to feel the way you felt, what can you do now? Nothing, accept that those were experiences at that point, just look at something, she found the police as her happiness reason to keep going....
You are still searching for what in the proffesional side will make you happy.... Basically you still searching for something... God its doing for you what you could not do for yourself, its hard to accept it but you said you didnt like the relationship completelly, now its the time to get to know yourself better, to gain confidence, pursuit your dreams and goals, create new ones and the universe plan will reveal little by little....

Maybe there is a better relationship with her out there for you or maybe with a new person, but you cant freeze yourself waiting for that to be revealed, you have to live today and let her live her life.

Read this:

God's Will

God's will most often happens in spite of us, not because of us.

We may try to second guess what God has in mind for us, looking, searching, hypervigilant to seek God's will as though it were a buried treasure, hidden beyond our reach. If we find it, we win the prize. But if we're not careful, we miss out.

That's not how it works.

We may believe that we have to walk on eggshells, saying, thinking, and feeling the right thing, while forcing ourselves somehow to be in the right place at the right time to find God's will. But that's not true.

God's will for us is not hidden like a buried treasure. We do not have to control or force it. We do not have to walk on eggshells in order to have it happen.

It is right there inside and around us. It is happening, right now. Sometimes, it is quiet and uneventful and includes the daily disciplines of responsibility and learning to take care of ourselves. Sometimes, it is healing us when we're in circumstances that trigger old grieving and unfinished business.

Sometimes, it is grand.

We do have a part. We have responsibilities, including caring for ourselves. But we do not have to control God's will for us. We are being taken care of. We are protected. And the Power caring for and protecting us loves us very much.

If it is a quiet day, trust the stillness. If it is a day of action, trust the activity. If it is time to wait, trust the pause. If it is time to receive that which we have been waiting for, trust that it will happen clearly and with power, and receive the gift in joy.

Today, I will trust that God's will is happening, as it needs to in my life. I will not make myself anxious and upset by searching vigorously for God's will, taking unnecessary actions to control the course of my destiny or wondering if God's will has passed me by and I have missed it.
From The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie ©1990, Hazelden Foundation.