Yes it does feel better. I feel like I'm in 'push pull' mode. I am happy that his texts don't mean too much to me but I am still struggling with completely letting go. I want to drop the rope and to him I believe I have however what I'm going through in my mind is still letting go.
Oddly I haven't heard a thing from my lawyer. I filed my response the beginning of this month and since she asked H's L to have him not contact me and to go through our L. I have heard nothing.
I feel like I'm in limbo. I don't want to proceed with the divorce if there is a chance H would work on our issues. However I don't want to wait around forever. I have told my lawyer I do not wish to impede anything but I do not want to be the one to initiate the proceedings except regarding getting some of my things returned which are not necessarily part of the divorce.
I guess I will just hope for more positive interaction this week at basketball since that's the only opportunity. I would have never thought that when I signed the boys up!
I played soccer all through high school and college so I'm thinking this might be something I can do as part of my GAL. I live in a small beach town so pretty much everything revolves around the water lol
