I can't give advice, but I have been 100% cut off by him since bd.
this is both easy and hard. I do understand the dreams, I used to dream all sorts, I thought I was going nuts. That was the point I got medicated. I hardly slept in 5 weeks.

At bd he said I made him sucidal! Mmmm I not sure he would understand the meaning.

M 46 h54
Both married before
T 11y
Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads!
Ms 18 hs 26