I am a very good person that held a lot of pain and anger from my youth!! Now that I am seeing all that clearly, it is so nice but hard. I don't expect her to come back, but being that I am better hard not to want to share with someone special. And she was someone very special. Just trying to let go now. Hopefully time will be good to me and show me even more of what I can fix and make me that much better. I like the new me, and not having to hold all the stuff inside.
The best feeling in the world would be, to share what I have learned with my W and kids as they get older. Don't hold onto grudges, if you are angry or wronged. Just jump and say what you need to, share your story and feelings. Never hold it in or let things you love pass you by without experiencing the whole picture first. And then go on with your life like tomorrow will be the best day ever. And they can always depend on me to be the best I can, even if I mess up!!
I hope everyone on the board gets that chance or at least some if it. And you are right Thornton, the heart wants what the heart wants. Just need to look at yourself and see what you can do for you. And maybe we will all get lucky and get the best ending possible!! Whatever that may be for each of us.
