Feeling down today. Really missing the companionship of marriage. Yes I ruined it, but doesnt mean I won't miss from time to time. Saw the W today as well for kiddo drop off and pick up. Makes it so much worse on the days I see her. Still plodding along though. I am starting to feel like I may give up on the M, but might change tomorrow, seems that way from day to day.
I am trying to get the OM oit of my mind, and quit giving him the power he doesnt deserve. Everytime I think about him, I would get angry, but why? Because I felt jealous, but what is there to be jealous of really? We are separated, and I have no say what or who she is with anymore. I can only control me and mynfeelings toward it. I hope in a week or so to be in a much better spot. At least that is my goal with all of this.
