Mdu, you sound really in a good place.
The alone thing is not lonely, and I think at the moment It's where I'm at too. I was letting people pressure me to feel I should be dating, I should be getting out and I should be doing it sooner as it will help.

I don't think it's the answer, I Truely never did and less so now.

M 46 h54
Both married before
T 11y
Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads!
Ms 18 hs 26