Roller coaster and then some

[daring]

FY- Very true that it's hard for either of us to pull one over on the other. Working on projecting that strength, with a hint of vulnerability as before I was too walled off to him.
Today he was giving me a hard time about something financial ( for background he is terrible with finances but I se him trying to be more responsible) and I got a little upset. We are having to redo some back taxes and pay extra, which is due to some previous irresponsibility on his part, and it's stressing me out. I've been doing all the work putting together the data needed and I haven't said anything negative or accusatory about it all. He came and sat next to me, looked me in the eye, rubbed my arm, and apologized for being difficult. Said he's not frustrated or disappointed in me and I have done amazing job getting everything together. I thanked him for talking with me and apologizing.

The above interaction and your question FY about why does he always want to make sure I'm ok got me thinking. I think he really does care about me and really doesn't want to hurt me. This is the real deep down person I know peeking out sometimes.
He's not in a place where we could have a healthy relationship yet and I know that. I will continue working on myself and hope that our bond and his continued caring are enough to help him through the crisis and find his way back.