So far, having a really good morning. Woke up feeling depressed and laid around a bit longer feeling sorry for myself than I should have. Finally made my butt get out of bed and went for a run. Ran 4 miles, furthest I've gone in a VERY long time. Note to self: another immediate pick me up is a good run. Then conquered the riding lawn mower again with NO mishaps. Pretty psyched about that too. Did some weeding and tidying around the house. I have to remember to MAKE myself do stuff like this, it totally makes me feel better.
Off to do some errands and hopefully continue the more positive mood. H texted me a couple times but they are definitely much colder than before. He really seems to be giving off a very skiddish vibe. Since my PMA is relatively good right now I'm taking it in stride, reminding myself that this is EXACTLY why we need to go slow. He is not at all solid in what he wants, seemingly continuing the pattern of expressing interest (even strong interest) in reconciling then backing off. God forbid we were foolish enough for him to come home at this stage, everything would just blow up again!!
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
