Hi Mustard I sure hope we are not .. because he is horrible.. I realised one of the reasons it is so painful isthat not only has the future you planned on been taken..and to be fair in life the future isnever a given. what I resent is that he took my past and smashed it..if he remembers it as a misery then it makes it hard to recall what was good.. so the things I enjoyed looking back on .. that made me smile are gone and it is a murky grey mess where I pick through the pieces and pick up the broken bits and try to polish into something I recognise and I can't.. and I look at photos and think was I really so stupid..and I don't like that thought.. and I can make a new future but I can't fix that broken past..
I hear you! I am just realizing that I have always trusted and believed everything he ever told me, but when I look back on his actions throughout our marriage I realize he never followed through with any of it. Was i really that naive? He is polite to me, but it is all talk. And this holding pattern I'm in, it is so not fair. I can't plan for my future because I have no idea what means I will have to make it happen and he isn't rushing to get anything moving in either direction--except for when I happen to say something that makes him think I still believe we still have a chance. Then he will say something like, "tomorrow we will talk about what to do next" to get the divorce moving along, but then he avoids me so the talk never happens.
40s 2teens M14Y BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14 BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14 EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15 D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17
