Roller coaster and then some

[daring]

Well darnit I have got to work on the PMA, acting "as if" when H is around.
I got home from work which has been quite busy since coming back from vacation. H was out back in pool with kids. I went outside and said hi and then came back in to work on some things.
Have to put together some documents for taxes and I was working on that when H said he was running out to his truck to grab his clothes.
Next thing I know he's out there chatting with our neighbor ( former EA, who was also on the business trip with him this week along with other colleagues). Tone fair, thus is not unusual, our families ( including our kids) are close and outside chatting quite often. It just irked me and made me feel crappy.
So he comes inside and I'm still working on tax documents. He asks if I'm ok, I say yes. He says doesn't seem like it. So I tell him I'm just stressed about getting all the documents together and other stuff I have to get done this weekend as well as preparing to be on call next week as we have a lot of patients in the hospital. It was a half truth- I left out the neighbor part.
He offered to take kids to their activity in AM and me meet them there so I could sleep in a little. I said no thank you. So he's coming in AM for us all to go together.
He also mentioned a friend is having a BBQ party at his house tomorrow. I asked what time he needs to leave to go to it- he said he's not sure if he's going, wants to see what the family is doing.
He seemed a little bothered that I was distant and also that S7 was initially going to go with him and then changed his mind. I think he's feeling lonely.

So I'm frustrated that I can't fake the PMA with him ( he knows me too well most if the time) but I did try to deflect what upset me. Positives are his desire to hang with family instead of friends. That's a bit of a change. He also finally got a bunch of work expenses submitted that I had been asking him to do for a few months.

Gotta get out of this bleh mood....