Ben, it doesn't got bought up outright, before we were s, I'd ring constantly, ask where he was, who he was with, what ime would he be home, and the do the "yeah right" when he told me, so at that point I never really believed him, so I tthink he thought "oh well she's not going to believe me anyway so I may as well do whatever" 25 mac, I have had jealousy issues for a very long time, more to do with abandonment form my father, mother was always busy so I always felt like I was left behind, it's only really recently with counseling that I've been able to realise it wasn't my fault the way my parents behaved (one of the reasons I'm striving to rebuild my m, I want the family unit to be whole for our boys) I am well aware of the damage I caused in our m, my reactions to his actions, the whole vicious cycle, and that I lived my life through h, these are the habits/things I am trying to change
