Cross country DB with WAS

[Anders]

No need to apologize Betsey. It is fantastic to have your advice and following my unfolding story! Thank you for that.

The other thing is that she might see you as willing rather than fighting her?

That is a good perspective to consider. I have been in the frame of mind that moving forward on the separation agreement would confirm for her that she is doing the right thing ending our M and I would be making it easier for her. We are to talk next week. Gives me a few extra days to think about this.

How's it going this week?

All in all a relatively good week. My mood and energy sync with the sunshine. When the sun is out, I'm at my best and spending lots of time outdoors.

I had a weird Wednesday night. W and I had texted a couple of times that day to confirm when we could talk next on finances. Very business like in tone from both sides (txts initiated by me). I then had a strange dream that is very fuzzy right now. The essence was that I ran into W and she was practically a stranger to me. And I didn't like the feeling of it one bit. It left a bad taste in my mouth and I didn't sleep well the rest of the night.

I was wrapping up the text exchange yesterday morning. I wanted to break the 'business tone'and wished her a good day. The previous day, there were a few hours between her replies. This time, she replied back right away with 'Thanks, you too!'

I am reaching for straws here but still it made me feel good that she felt good, or at least seemed to. Not sure if that makes any sense. Then today, I looked at a picture of W. I have been avoiding doing this for a while now. And I can't believe that we are in the middle of all of this and how far apart we are.