FINALLY SURFACING

[Fartiltre]

I texted W after out talk:
“Thanks for a good talk earlier. I won’t have the possibility to call you back this evening. Let’s see about tomorrow.
Kiss the girls :-)
Fartiltre”

W replied:
“You’re welcome. It’s totally alright. We can talk later. Have a nice evening”

Since then - no communication.
I will leave the initiative to continue this talk at her for now.
In a week or two I will look into it – we need to settle on something for D7


Today I went to see my shrink.
I wanted to talk about my communication and especially the part of my communication that seems to upset W. We went through it and she told me that I should simply keep on doing exactly what I am doing as long as it makes me feel good and as long as I am sure that I am not communication this way to upset W on purpose.

Afterwards we had a long and good talk about my changes and me being worried if this is just a shell. She almost found it amusing (in a good way) and then she started listing what she sees, why she sees it as real changes, what she has experienced with me during the past year and why she doesn’t see me falling back. She was very convincing and very objective so I took a major step away from this fear today.



Vacation started today I have 4 weeks leave now and that is the most I have ever had in row. The first 3 weeks the children will be here. At first S11, then all three of them and at the end I will have a week with the Ds.
Week four is for me and a friend to travel.

Next Sunday W, children and I go on a one day trip to visit a special children’s circus. We went to this last year after BD but before her moving and will do so again. Otherwise no mutual plans for the vacation.