BTW, I am a believing practicing Christian myself. Get off the soap box. He is desperate enough for relief that he's willing to break vows to get what he needs. Please understand that although it's always been HIS choice not to address this stuff with you, it must be beyond difficult to be willing to grasp at the last straw with the highest risk to do it.
What I did instead is to ask God to change what was in my heart. That's the one prayer He answered swiftly. I had to continually work my program, but it was my main prayer for a long, long time.
Another soothing book I'd also recommend to you is The Power of the Praying Wife by Stormie Omartian. It gave me the strength to fight my own demons so that we had a chance. Put your faith to work for you, friend.
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
