Phoenix slowly rising

[TL72*]

That sounds like a fun weekend! Good for you! I think you will find you cry less often, I know I haven't cried about him for a couple months now, have not heard from him in 3 weeks I think. There are little reminders, when I see a truck like his for a split second I think it's him but then it passes and I think about other things. I turn off music that reminds me of him still but it doesn't eff with my head like it did before. Too much other stuff going on in my mind lately anyway. My cat escaped, trying to find her. Now I may only have 2. Yeah I hear ya on that "good person" statement. I still believe my ex is a good person inside and he did what he felt he had to do. Just took me some time to catch up emotionally and mentally because I didn't know that's what he was going to do. They have us at a disadvantage. Now I feel caught up, no longer emotionally investing in the dead relationship. What a relief! Letting go and forgiving.... myself and him. It's really life changing but now I see it as all positive. I would not want to relive that pain ever, but now I see it as part of my journey and it all it makes me who I am today. A stronger more independent woman. I was reading through my old journal entries last night and just wow! You can see the thought process and some changes taking place. It was only a few months ago but I have some drastic changes that happened. Yeah I agree on the disappointment and loss of respect and trust. I still say the mantra too. Not as often as I did but i'm not feeling that anger/resentment anymore either. Now it just is what it is. have a great weekend!!