Phoenix slowly rising

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Hey TL, been wondering about you. Checked your thread and hadn't seen anything for a while. I was wondering how your mom is doing, and how you are doing.

Thank you for the words of advice. As always, solid stuff.

Got pretty angry with him the other day and I think I may have found a place in my head I can go to keep from seeing him as the guy I knew, and missing him. I just keep telling myself he hasn't been a good guy about this b/x good guys don't do this to people in the way he went about this. Basically, I think he is a good person, but there's something that has been a problem in his mind/life for a while that caused him to do what he's done. I never wanted to think ill of him, and I don't really, just soooooooooooooooooooooooooo disappointed. Have lost almost all respect and trust with him. Hurts. But I still do the mantra every day. Weird how it's like habit now.

Anyway, something in me has changed I hope. Maybe it's because he is gone for a while and I feel free to 'move about the cabin' of my community and life without having to worry about running in to him and the gf (if they're even still dating).

Just getting on with it. Haven't had a good cry in a number of days which is a relief. Going to spend the weekend with an old high school friend and her family - should be a lot of fun. I'm really looking forward to it.