I had an affair... and I want my Fiancee back

[DBinSF]

Hi all,

So quick update: I've had a few more interactions with my Ex since my last post. She says stuff like "I just need to be clear, it's over." And then she proceeds to ask me all sorts of questions about "How could I ever trust you again? How would I know you're living with integrity?" Her friends tell me she's still angry and that if there's a chance of reconciliation, it will be a LONG time from now. Given that she's 35 and wants kids, I fear she will jump right into another relationship.

I've done a crazy amount of work in the last two months on myself, and it's been really good. I have clarity on the fact that I need to keep working on myself for a while to get straight about things, to drive home new habits around integrity and trustworthiness, and really to start being the man I've always wanted to be.

Our Anniversary is coming up on July 7. We were going to be on a beach vacation with my family that week. Should I reach out to commemorate it in some way?

Thanks!