Getting a bit nervous about Saturday now. It is only 2 days away. She has not called to confirm anything with me yet either. I would think that she might want to do that soon. Had a talk with my C today about it. He seems pretty thrilled that it seems to be going in the right direction. Says that he has already seen some growth in me, which Im happy about.
He asked me how I felt about the situation right now. I told him that IMO best case scenario would be that we have a great date, she wants to talk about us after and maybe we go back home and have sex and she decides to stay. I told him that I wasnt sure that she should come back just yet. It might be a bit rushed for her and then it could trigger the same thing all over again. I dont think that I would tell her that. She knows herself better than anyone. If she did decide for some reason to come back this soon I would really have to be careful to not push her away and continue some of my GAL activities. I do not EXPECT anything close to the "best case scenario" though. Right now I just hope I dont do anything to backslide or make her angrier than she already is on the date.
We also talked about some of the changes that Ive been working on lately. If I look at it as a "big picture" then it feels really good that I am even attempting to do all of this. BTW day number 3 of not smoking. I feel better than ever about myself with the staying away from porn more than anything. It has driven me to try to fight addiction in general, which is why Im trying to stop smoking right now. I would throw video games in there, but Ive just become bored of those, so it isnt really "quitting". Still no ETA on when I get braces either...I dont really want to be a 33 year old man with braces, but it will be worth it I guess.
Speaking of GAL, I talked my brother into doing the scuba classes with me. Should be a lot of fun and Im pretty excited about it. Kind of expensive, but I feel like Im worth it lol.
Dont really have too much today. Ive been in a pretty good mood for most of this week. Im sure that alot of that has to do with scheduling the date though. I know Im not even partially detached so I will have to fake it. Also I have been getting alot of other girls at work hitting on me lately too. It does help build the self esteem, but Im still not interested. I have to keep my eye on the prize and right now that is ME and second prize is the W.
Last edited by Ben2010; 06/27/1412:51 AM.
M:33 W:30 T:10 M:2 B/D: 5/27/14 S: 5/28/14 Wife moved back in 7/18/14
