Dawgy; Yes it's hard. Be strong. This will take all the self determination you can muster. But you need to follow he advice. She will give you mixed messages. She will spew one day and be lovey dovey the next. It is a rollercoaster ride like you've never felt before. You will feel hopeful one moment and desperate and needy the next. You will cry and scream and get angry. This is all normal. But right now you need to get a grip. If you feel like saying something in response to her make the T sign with your hands and say "I just need a brief time out" and walk away. Go outside and breathe. Think about the consequences of any statements you may make. You could even give her a heads up that when you're talking with her and you feel unsure of how to respond to her then you may from time to time give her the T sign and state that you need a time out. I've done that with relative success. Although sometimes I've opened my mouth to let my foot fall out. We all screw up from time to time - it takes stamina to keep oneself under control. Very hard. Just dust yourself off and get back with the program. You could even say to her later, "Sorry I invaded your space this morning when you just needed to rest. I'll try to be more sensitive in the future." and leave it at that. Don't repeat it. Just say it once and move forward. Act happy even though inside you may be screaming for connection. Reread Sandi's rules. Rewrite them in the first person using I and your W's name where required. That way you can internalize them better.
M: 59 W: 53 M: 9 yrs T: 14 yrs No kids together but D30(hers), S27, S24, D21(all 3 mine) W moved out 11/18/2013 D-Day 12/14/2013 W moved back home 12/1/2014