Haha! IH, you crack me up! Take it easy with the new girl!
Labug - I dont know what's holding me back. I think I've been relying on WAW to make me happy instead of finding happiness from within. I'm working on codependence issues with my therapist. Alot of what I've read about codependency resonates with me and I look back on my previous relationships and see a pattern.
IC says I am an anxious attachment personality. When in relationships, I have a fear of abandonment that actually creates behaviors that become self-fulfilling prophecies. I can see that now. It all goes back to my childhood when my sister was killed in an accident and both my parents basically lost their minds and were'nt able to be there for me for about a year.
I'm a fixer, a rescuer. And then I expect my partner to reciprocate. Not healthy at all.
I can now see how much pressure I put on WAW. That wasn't fair of me. Yes I was there for her through all her problems, but that doesn't mean she owes me anything.
I'm starting to see the light, and that makes me happy because now I know where to start fixing myself.
