T, I'm very, very sorry that she made the decision that she did. She apparently couldn't face you w/her decision, I am very sorry for that. You've been her rock for a very long time and have shown her what unconditional love is. I'm glad you are going to mull this over for a while.
T, I do not think your wife is done and I do not think that this chapter in your life is completely over. You both will still be in each other's lives because of your sons and I also think that at some point you and your wife will be friends. Sometimes, the mlcer has to cut the ties in order to find their way back to the lbs.
Again, I am very sorry. I had such high hopes that she would heal and return home...but..I've not given up on her yet.
I wish that I could offer you a hug today for you surely need it. Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.