Yeah GoatGal your right , 2x4 time . lol Its just so hard to keep up the DBing and the pain is so great that when it looks a little brighter I cant help myself from backsliding . Im miss her soooo much , the ache in my heart is beyond desciption . How do i fight this feeling every few days when it comes on . Im so deeply in love with her and always have been . I need some way to stop myself from screwing up every , what seems like every 3 days . She for the most part has been helping me through the rough days with just being pleasant and giving me hope . Days like today there feels like no hope .
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
