Possilble WAW

[dawgy]

I messed up alot this morning . Nothing huge i dont think but i tried to cuddle early this morning , and she wasnt very receptive . She was cold and callous this morning. She was drinking abit last nite and i find when she drinks the night before seems more distant the next morning especially . I felt so vulnerable this morning i hugged her and told her i loved her . She just mumbled back something . She seemed really disgusted with me this morn . If things wernt going well in her affair would she blame me and be meaner and more distant to me .That may explain why shes like that every few days . Then days in betweeen she s much nicer and like her old self . The drinking could be depressing her also the next day I suppose . Shes got us in a real pickle . She drinks to feel good at night and sleep but then the next day shes really down . I told her a while back that she thinks shes unhappy now , just imagine how unhappy she would be if she left and caused so much damage. At least while shes here theres no damage except to me which i believe we can work out . I have nt seen any evidence of her leaving yet and theres only a few days left in the month . Who knows . I give her space every evening and we work all day so she does nt see me all that much . A month ago we were in a lot better shape even though the situation was the same. I wonder why ? Someone please chime in , im hurting this morning .