Rather odd time since my last post. I caught a virus from D2 (winter here) and then just as I was feeling better, caught something else, which really hammered me this week. So it feels like I’ve done a lot of sleeping/recovering/coughing in the last two weeks.
I’ve tried not to think about the sitch, while I’ve been so pathetic.
I did have some reprieve between the two viruses on Saturday and that was cool because 4 households of my neighbours (met them in late 2013 when I bought a house) and I had a progressive dinner. It was really nice and they were lovely company. I mentioned Auckland (as I’d got a second interview by Saturday) and they seemed sad about it.
I've been occupied thinking about this opportunity, and decided today not to pursue it further. It has been useful as a catalyst to help me resolve to myself what I want to do most at the moment, which is stay here in my current location. My sense is that in another year - or thereabouts, assuming no major new changes(!), I may choose to return to London for work. Certainly, that feels better to me than escaping to a compromise role in the short term. I was pleased to take the opportunity 'on' though, because it has made me feel happy about/re-confirmed my present choices.
A good friend of mine has just completed her training as a yoga teacher. She has been encouraging me to ‘embrace change’ and sent me the below reading, which I thought may also be of comfort to readers and I believe it resonates with DB.
The Seasons of Life (Chogyam Trunpa)
There are seasons in your life in the same way as there are seasons in nature. There are times to cultivate and create, when you nurture your world and give birth to new ideas and ventures. There are times of flourishing and abundance, when life feels in full bloom, energized and expanding. And there are times of fruition, when things come to an end. They have reached their climax and must be harvested before they begin to fade. And finally, of course, there are times that are cold and cutting and empty, times when the spring of new beginnings seems like a distant dream. Those rhythms of life are natural events. They weave into one another as day follows night, bringing, not messages of hope and fear, but messages of how thing ARE. If you realize that each phase of life is a natural occurrence, then you need not be swayed, pushed up and down by the changes in circumstances and mood that life brings. You find that you have an opportunity to be fully in the world at all times and to show yourself as a brave and proud individual in any situation.
