Hi Mustard I sure hope we are not .. because he is horrible.. I realised one of the reasons it is so painful isthat not only has the future you planned on been taken..and to be fair in life the future isnever a given. what I resent is that he took my past and smashed it..if he remembers it as a misery then it makes it hard to recall what was good.. so the things I enjoyed looking back on .. that made me smile are gone and it is a murky grey mess where I pick through the pieces and pick up the broken bits and try to polish into something I recognise and I can't.. and I look at photos and think was I really so stupid..and I don't like that thought.. and I can make a new future but I can't fix that broken past..
