Not doing too good today. My PMA is taking a beating and I think it's because in the past 48hrs my WAW and I have spent more time together than the last 3 months since D day and all this goin thru our stuff together in moving.
Just felt like apologizing to her all day and have just had all these left over thoughts of shame "man if I only worked hard and kept my other ft jobs we might still be together. Such a simple fix and I blew it and she doesn't trust me that I will look after her" man I am never ever gonna be that way again. I can't wait to work 2-3 jobs and be who I was before the last six years.
Blah!!!! I know detach, GAL stop with the guilt tripping and self mind reading.
I just hurt today. Somebody stop that knife from going in again.
Gonna GAL with some new friends tonight at a coffee shop downtown (we live in the burbs so that is really GALing when you hit the city)
I have still been confident and upbeat ...recovered well from yesterday but inside I am a mess. Deep deep breath. I can do this.

Me 42 W:35
M: 14yrs T:15yrs
D: 8yrs D:6yrs S:3yrs
BD: "I want a D"09/03/14
Sep: 30/06/14

Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.