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This will be a rollercoaster. You will have good days and bad days. You will start to make progress and then screw up and backslide. Dont worry about the bad days. Focus on the good days and what made them good. While you will make mistakes along the way, most mistakes are not catastrophic and cannot be remedied later on. When you feel the rush of emotions coming on, go somewhere private and let them out. Never let your H see you cry or be upset anymore. It is SO VERY important for him to see this change in you. He needs to notice you are not crying over him anymore, and in fact, you are happy and upbeat about your future. The sooner he realizes you are no longer permanently available to him, the sooner he will move closer to you.

Best of luck to you and remember to post here often. Get involved in other people's posts because that way they see you and go check your story out. Who knows, they may have something beneficial to contribute.