Mach1 and willbwell thanks for your responses. The feelings definitely come in waves and I wish there was a way to make it all stop. It's so insane to be in this place, especially since it goes against every fiber in you. It's just hard to swallow that the person that for 13 years was your confidant and best friend has done a 180 and spiralling out of control and taking you with them. He is deciding the fate of your family and you can do NOTHING about it.
Me: 35, H: 36, M: 6, S: 1, D: 3, BD: 4/21/14 H still living at home