Thx Peter . I was patiently waiting for someone to chime is this morning . Mainly because zi was so proud of my self for holding back last night . I just really miss her . Its a constant ache in my heart . I look at her and feel so dam worthless . My insides are rolling thinking she may never let me hold her again . The only reason Im Dbing is for the sole purpose of having my love back . That is why detachment is so hard for me , because I truly love this woman . It is the worst feeling ive ever had including deaths of loved ones .
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
