Go back and read Mr.Bond's posts and his situation from the beginning. He is giving you good advice FROM EXPERIENCE...

And seriously, if you are truly contemplating suicide GET HELP! http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since