Wow, what a difference a full night's sleep does for the mind. I only woke up once to use the bathroom and slept until my alarm went off. That hasn't happened in 2 months.
Good for you!!!
Last night before bed, I was reading a daily reader by Melanie Beatty. I flipped it open to the current date, and the subject was all about detachment. It felt like a sign that I need to work harder at detaching and really grasping the concept.
It is a work in progress for many newbies. Been there, done that. Have the t-shirt.
Detaching is scary for me. It makes me feel out of control and that it will only push away and justify in WAW's mind that she made the right decision.
Why? Detaching is FOCUSING on you and your own life. Detaching ins't pushing anyone. It is just living your life and being you. GALing with activities and hobbies just makes you all the more interesting & well-rounded. It usually draws the WAS back because you've shown you're independent and seek out your own joy.
I'm also starting to feel like WAW wants me to be the one to pull the plug. It is your anxiety that's acting up and you spin off into mindreading.I realize that she left me, but she stays tethered to me through FB and keeping her things and receiving mail at my place.
Is this a possibility? That she wants to be the victim here and have me text her to come get all her things and that I'm deleting her from FB? It almost seems like that's what she wants IMO to ease her guilt (or whatever she is feeling). Mindreading...
Don't go there. Speculating does no one good and it keeps you stuck.
