Wow, what a difference a full night's sleep does for the mind. I only woke up once to use the bathroom and slept until my alarm went off. That hasn't happened in 2 months.
Last night before bed, I was reading a daily reader by Melanie Beatty. I flipped it open to the current date, and the subject was all about detachment. It felt like a sign that I need to work harder at detaching and really grasping the concept.
Detaching is scary for me. It makes me feel out of control and that it will only push away and justify in WAW's mind that she made the right decision.
I'm also starting to feel like WAW wants me to be the one to pull the plug. I realize that she left me, but she stays tethered to me through FB and keeping her things and receiving mail at my place.
Is this a possibility? That she wants to be the victim here and have me text her to come get all her things and that I'm deleting her from FB? It almost seems like that's what she wants IMO to ease her guilt (or whatever she is feeling). Mindreading...
