Wow, it's hard to read this and know that you keep skipping over parts til you find "the secret" to fix the situation
instead of working on becoming a man only a fool would leave
I realize you do not know HOW to become a man only a fool would leave, which is sad and telling.
But the thing is, you have also been told, repeatedly in the books AND HERE
that you must detach (so you don't obsess and keep making things worse) AND for your own protection - so your life doesn't sukk so much being consumed by all this...
and you MUST Get A Life...we say this b/c it works!
But yes, it means getting OUT of the house and DOING something new/different.
I know you are in pain and that you hurt. I know this is not easy for you, but what we are telling you is not complicated.
Stop wondering about HER, or a possible affair (I am rolling my eyes at your newest way to avoid doing any work on yourself)...
and just work on You...like for at least 90 days and THEN see how it goes.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016