What to do II

[Ben2010]

Thanks for the insight GG,

You always have something helpful to say as this is not the common subject matter on here. I have had some performance issues in the past with this too. Very embarassing when that happens. I knew what it was that was making it happen, but the W just thought that I didnt want to touch her. It hurt her feelings either way there. Of course I felt ashamed, but never really put forth the effort to not do it. I asked my C why I was able to do it so easily this time. He told me that sometimes a crisis can help you get the motivation you needed all along. That is one thing that I am happy about with this sitch.

One thing you said really really caught my attention here.
"IT was, more than the OW, THE reason he filed for divorce."

Is that really true? If so, I would say that is for sure an addiction. I would never let that be the reason I filed for D. Although I guess you could look at my sitch and say that basically I was doing the same thing in a different way. Im just thankful that my W has offered me a chance to fix it. I know with 100% certainty that if she ever found that I was doing it again that she would be done for good. I am not willing to let that be the reason that we dont work out.

I do agree with you saying that it is all a lie and that it skews your perception of how women really are. It makes you think that every chick out there wants you to C*m on there faces and stuff. The W even thought that I wanted that because it was in porn and offered to let me do it. It felt dirty and weird and uncomfortable to do that to your W.

I have been at that point before of not being able to go 24 hours before. It is rough and you feel pathetic after you have failed.

What is the name of that other board you belong to for porn addiction? I would be interested in checking that out. And I appreciate your concerns for me. It means alot that it isnt just generalized nonsense.