Journaling: I am getting a bit nervous about the date just thinking about it. Trying not to wonder why she even asked me. It just seemed weird that she would ask the day after we have a R discussion that was good, but had plenty of "im not ready" and "still dont have any feelings" in it. It made me think that her parents are pushing her to work it out. I dont think I would want it that way. Im sure that it wouldnt work if thats the reason. Oh well maybe it is just that she wants to see for herself if I have made any changes at all.
Feels like Im in high school sweating it out until Saturday for a date with a girl that Ive been pursuing for years. Coincidentally that really happened to me in high school and after one date it turned out that I didnt want to date that girl that I had been after for 3+ years.
On another note I have decided to cut out not only porn but any form of self gratification as well. Not sure how thats gonna work but we will see. Im sure it wont hurt the sex life at all when it does get back to that point.
M:33 W:30 T:10 M:2 B/D: 5/27/14 S: 5/28/14 Wife moved back in 7/18/14
