I'll tell you what, "This thread is hot!" Now, drop the rope and let it burn, Ox." We're kicking you in the rear because we understand and don't want you to tailspin into the gutter or take a dive into the pit. You're spiraling down and need to read and reread Sandi's list and all the DBing books. You obviously are educated and not wanting to use that head of yours. It's critical you get that head screwed on. I know. Been there and THANK GOD I didn't do anything yet that I regret. Just do it. Stop talking and start taking the DBing action. GAL 180 drop the rope
Do you get it? This DBing is Tough Love on steroids!