You know what Owls are always full of wisdom. I have really been thinking about forgiveness today. I just read a story that kind of struck me. What you tell a friend or a child who made mistakes. Keep beating yourself up, show your family you don't care about them and are selfish. I don't want to be selfish anymore, I'm sick of it. I can be better, I can quit what I want when I want. This has really been eating at me for a couple of days. Time to move on. Go to work on the things that matter. This is so silly. I think I just wanted sympathy and someone to care about me. How selfish, so good to write these things out.
I miss my wife, but I was miserable for the longest time too. Right now, I am miserable for what I did, but it doesn't matter. I can either wallow or just go out and try to get happy. I need happiness with or without W. I so desperately want her in my life, but I am not giving up on me to do it. If she wants me, she can have me, otherwise I need happiness.
I like to shoot guns, haven't been in ages. I like to see movies in theater haven't been to maybe 2 movies in 2 years. I like to get outdoors, fish, hike, only had my fishing license once in three years. I like to fix things, I haven't touched anything in ages, either broken or in need of remodel. What have I been doing to myself? Focusing on the misery. Screw it, I'm done, I want those things. I want happy days from now on.
What do some of the rest of you like to do? An good suggestions for activities for 2 young girls?
