Old dog seeks new trick

[Old Dog]

Some of us are just built differently MrBond. It may be a confidence thing, it may be fear, it may be all kinds of things, but it just doesn't happen. Or maybe you have to hit rock bottom first? And I'm well aware that other people would see my situation and think stupid idiot or is that all he's got to contend with?

I don't know if my marriage can be saved even when I do turn my stuff around. My wife is astute and determined and she'll know the truth. I can't think about that now, I've got a job to do: and I have started by the way. I'm writing down what I need to do and I'm doing it. This is one of those things. Small steps, but it's a start.

I saw on LuckyLuke's thread that someone posted 'less talk and more action'. I copied it down, as well as 'Inertia is the greatest enemy to GAL'.

It's hard to forgive yourself when you've done something so mindnumbingly stupid. But my wife says, we did what we could at the time with what we knew. She's not perfect either.

Thanks for coming on here and giving me a kick up the arse and for the encouragement. In days gone by I would have gone all passive aggressive on you like I did at school - '**** you I won't do what you tell me'. I can recognise that in me now and reject it. It didn't do me any favours then and it won't do now.