I can't FAKE it for six months. I am fine most of the time, believe it or not, but when I can't sleep I am sitting there next to this person who doesn't want me and it IS awful------it's not that I can't handle not having sex, it's that I hurt and feel unwanted and I can't even talk to her about it without "pressure" being the #1 word.
But six months? I can't stand ONE NIGHT without sleep feeling like this. It affects me. It DOES make me less wanting to buy flowers and cook dinner and all the things I continue to do to make it look like absolutely nothing is wrong and not resent her or get mad or ask for sex or care about my needs or how I feel.
So I come here, not because I feel like I'm going to get a revelation in advice but because I can't just keep it inside. I can't tell my best friend, my wife. I told her this morning in a text I feel unwanted and alone and humiliated to tell her yesterday she can text me or sending pictures makes me feel good and that I can't tell anything anymore and I'm afraid to talk to her about anything I have ANY needs for (like why any time she takes off any clothes or has a piece of junk mail or napkin it always all ends up on the floor or the countertops, etc.)
