Thanks Ben. I know you're right. And I know I can do it. When I was younger, I wasn't so afraid. I left the family home and headed for London. I didn't know anyone, I got a job, went to gigs, met people, joined a band. I had a spark.
I think I'm just still suffering from grief. But I immediately knew I had to do something. That's why I'm here. I hope you are right about MrBond. I thought he just didn't like self pitying slackers :-)
I am heartened to hear it is possible to change these things. I'm on the road back to sunshine and happiness. And if I feel down tomorrow, I'm going to listen to my mindfulness podcast until I'm out of the red and back in the black.
M: 57 / EW: 52 T: 21, M: 8 S: 18, S: 15 Bomb: 1 Jun 14 EA Aug 2014 I think PA Feb 2015 possibly sooner