What to do II

[Ben2010]

Thanks for the response Wonka. I think you may have my sitch confused with someone else though. My W is not involved at all with OM or A. Maybe it was something I said to make you think that, but if so then I apologize.

I agree that is why she seems to be shut off much of the time. Sometimes her nose is telling her the wrong thing too though. Like that I am just looking for a reaction when I am not. I always think to myself when she says something completely insensitive "she is scared, dont react to that." It seems to help me keep calm alot.

As far as the changes, I would agree that these are changes for me without her in mind. I like what Im working on now. In 6 months from now I will be able to manage my anger, have a much greater understanding of how love works, stop smoking, have much nicer teeth, be a way better communicator, much stronger Christian and just a better man in general.

I agree with the friends thing too. I have not been the best friend that I could have been. There have been many occasions where I dont go places with them when invited. I think this is partially anxiety and depression. Also a result of the "love euphoria" with wife too. Everyone knows how that works, you meet someone and nothing else seems to matter. I dont invite some of my friends over because I have a tiny studio apartment right now too. I have been hanging out at my brother's house alot lately. I even bought a bike this weekend and we went for about a 2 mile bike ride and I actually had fun with it. I forgot how much fun bikes are.

I have rethought the approach with the phone calls too. I will explain how that came about in my next post. I have a huge update with some new developments. I will post the update in a bit, I have a meeting to go to very soon. Thanks again Wonka for the insight.