Hurt and Confussed

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well today im having a bad one, I miss my wife and family and home. It is very hard trying to figure her out. I know I shouldn't but sometimes I find myself trying to. The other day she called my best friend and told him that she is done with me because I will never change and that im selfish and never thought of the family, she gave him like 20 to prove her point. Like how sometimes I wouldn't want to go to a kids birthday party because the other dads were not going and that it proves that im selfish and he said that it seems like she is building a strong case against me for why she is divorcing. I know I had my flaws but she really is making me out to be a turd, and the hard thing about it is that I was not the guy she is making me out to be. All she can think of is the negative. She says she is lonely
and misses the companionship but that I will never change. How can you show someone that you are changing and making yourself a better person when they wont even give you a chance? She says she never wants to marry again or have another relationship, that she just wants to focus on her and the girls. How do I handle this, it seems everything I do is wrong. I feel like im living in a freaking nightmare!!! everyeone tells her that im changing and she says im only doing it to try and get her back because im sellfish...urghhhhhhh sorry guys had to vent a little.