Funeral for a husband, love lies bleeding

[cczamo]

Journal update:
this past weekend I really GALed and coincidentally, one of stbH dogs got sick with vomiting and diarrhea. H called leaving VM and texted on Sat asking if he could drop sick dog (Pixie) off at house Sat, picking up Sunday, since his apartment was constantly having to be cleaned and I had doggie door access. I said yes,and if you want, bring your brand new rug that she dirtied, and clean with hose in back yard, if you wish. I also indicated that I would not be at house to watch her Sat night or Sunday first half of day.

On Sunday afternoon when he texted that he'd be by house to pick dogs up at 2:15 I responded, " Okay,I will just be getting home at about that time." Then when he arrived, I went outside (where he can let himself into yard), and I was still in my church clothes with my purse over shoulder shoulder to tell him Pixie seemed fine as did all other dogs. Thats when he remarked, "well I'm glad that I helped you get your social life going!" I asked him "I beg your pardon?" He said, I see that you're never home and you're going to church, going out, running at the lake...all the things I wanted you to do with me, you're doing now." I then said, "I hope that you are happy for me, regarding the improvements I've made in my life." To that he muttered something derogatory under his breath. I then said to him, "I always wanted for you to stop drinking in our marriage, and now that you HAVE stopped drinking over the past months, even though you're not doing it with me and for our marriage, I'm happy for you achieving that goal. I don't understand why you cannot be happy for me?" Then I mentioned that I'd been praying for him to have strength to continue not drinking. He said, "don't pray for me, pray for yourself." I said, "I do! I pray for us both!" He left angry with me.

Later in afternoon, he emailed unfriendly toned email regarding a phone bill that he'd just agreed to pay two days earlier on Friday, saying "you owe me." He also sent an email to attorney (cc'd to me) saying "This is a reminder to expedite divorce papers needing our signatures, as we are 'due in court' two weeks from tomorrow." It has been explained to us that two weeks from tomorrow is the earliest we can get D finalized. There is no appointment, and no due date in court, however. You just show up.
H is seemingly hurrying up D, as if he's in a panic. this is his second expediting request to atty in 2 weeks.