Getting a little more anxious for my vacation again. Other than a 4 text exchange about a delivery have not talked to H since early last week.
Had a good weekend. Beach with D12 and friend on Sat, then dinner and we invited a couple of girls with us. Yesterday we cleaned the house and then D15 and I went shopping. This week is haircuts and nails and last minute stuff to get ready. D12 has a tournament this weekend...I'm a little stressed.
Talked to my brother yesterday, he doesn't know what's going on. He is taking some time off and visiting when we are on vacay as well, told me he was disappointed that he will not be there when H is there because he was looking forward to seeing him. Things like this make me realize how D affects so many, not just me and H....sigh.
I know I need to stop focusing on H but I wish I had a little bit of a clue as to what is going on in his head. I'm getting some mixed messages with his actions but I know what he said 4.5 months ago and how stubborn he is. I will try hard to step off the crazy train I have created for myself and focus on me. I need to do my best to have PMA when I'm around him.
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since