I am lazy I know, and I stress again I'm not looking for excuses here, but I do think there may be something else. Some sort of programming. This probably sounds like classic excuse making: right on script.
I'm trying my best to look at myself objectively. Goodness knows it's hard and I don't like what I see. I'm not wallowing in misery like I would have done and have before looking for sympathy. I'm fed up with that life.
Thanks for your input MrBond. I will look up Lucky Luke when I get home.
M: 57 / EW: 52 T: 21, M: 8 S: 18, S: 15 Bomb: 1 Jun 14 EA Aug 2014 I think PA Feb 2015 possibly sooner