Old dog seeks new trick

[MrBond]

"I do really want to be an adult and shake off this inability to act malaise. Maybe it is too late with W, but I can see this happening again if I don't do anything."

You say it's an "inability" to act malaise. I call it being lazy. It doesn't matter what you do. What matters is that you actually DO something. You say that you like DB because it gives you a plan. If you go back through your posts, you said your W told you many times what you could do or should be doing. You just chose not to.

When you have a chance, look up the posts of a person named Lucky Luke. I think the two of you have alot in common.