Devaste;
I believe she is being honest here. She has obviously put a lot of thought and self-reflection into this email.
She is very confused and doesn't know how to help herself.
She should find herself a good psychiatrist to diagnose and treat her mental illness. You could even offer to help by saying you just want your children's mother to be happy and healthy, mentally and emotionally.
This email is a cry for help. I don't think she knows where to turn. She's grasping at straws for solutions, but she needs psychotherapy to help her through this. But not just any old shrink. She needs someone particularly skilled to handle these types of problems. I would try to find her a good psychiatrist, maybe even using the email to get a feel for what sort of therapeutic approach potential psychiatrists would use.
Ideations of suicide are not uncommon in depression. She may even have PTSD from that earlier incident with the shotgun.

I think this email is an indication that she has actually done some soul searching. She's not spewing here. I'm somewhat amazed at the lucidity of her self-analysis. However, she is at a loss for solutions. That's where a therapist can help. I would even suggest a SBT just to get her some fast relief.

My WAW also has depression and complex PTSD and our MC is also her therapist so she working on that. I know it's not easy to live with that. My W has also had ideations of suicide. We've been dealing with this for a while now and it does take time. I didn't see a lot of results from CBT. She did respond well to other therapies, but still is in a funk.
I know it's hard not to want to jump in and rescue, but I don't see anything wrong with offering some guidance and showing concern.


M: 59 W: 53
M: 9 yrs
T: 14 yrs
No kids together but D30(hers), S27, S24, D21(all 3 mine)
W moved out 11/18/2013
D-Day 12/14/2013
W moved back home 12/1/2014