It's been about a month since I posted to this thread. In that time, I have had more personal growth and have worked on the spiritual component of my life. I stopped dating for now (That was hard to do because I hurt a few people ), keep busy (scuba studying) and lean in on my friends a lot.
I kept in the dark mode phase for awhile and tried to get cozy with it. Long story short - good things are happening maybe....MAYBE....big maybe. But I am slow, cautious, and not at all willing to rush to anything. I think time and life have a way at whittling away at hearts at times....minds, too. This may very well be the case for XW. Not to give too much away, but today was the first time we spoke in person about "things" since she moved out a year ago. We sat in the courtyard at church at talked during the service while S was in Sunday school. Lots of ground covered in 60 minutes, but we have a lot more to go. We all went to breakfast for the first time in about a year afterwards.
I haven't been posting here too much because I am trying to ride my bike without training wheels a little bit and see how I do. I am cautiously optimistic.....but still based in reality. Oh, and to clarify, she is the one that reached out to me.
Hope there is more to come....we'll see. Either way, I am adjusting.
Crimson
PS....really funny with all of that happening today, 25, that TODAY is the day you ask for an update..........
), keep busy (scuba studying) and lean in on my friends a lot.