I'm more concerned from the suicidal aspect than from the WAW side.
Sounds like she's letting you completely off the hook, and saying she's not worthy of anyone or anything. And she hates you for loving someone so unworthy of you.
Isn't that part of the suicidal drama? Are you convinced she isn't in danger? Hate to analyze this as WAW-speak without taking the self destructive side into account first.
