I think it's sincere, she's not playing. The thoughts she's had of anxiety, despair and suffocation are real feelings. I've mentioned her suicidal thoughts in my stitch before. They are all very real.
My challenge is what I do, that contributes to that, and trying to change that, if it is possible.
I think she wants to be friends, and I know she is scared of losing me, but she's more scared of losing herself. I've told her we will not be friends if there is an OM involved in this D and there is no commitment to work or try to repair out M.
Bottom line, she doesn't feel good about herself around her family and me. I need to try and adjust my behavior to limit that, but at the same time, she needs a lot of space to figure out herself.
I'm a tad overwhelmed by the letter right now. I need more time to digest.
